On The Path

If you hope to expand
You should first learn how to contract.
If you hope to become strong
You should first understand weakness in yourself.
If your ambitions are to be exalted
Humiliation should always follow.
If you hold fast to something
It will surely be taken away from you.
This is the operation of the subtle law of the universe.
The law of the universe is subtle,
But it can be known.
The soft and the meek can overcome the hard and the strong.
The true strength of a country or a person is not on the outside.
Just as fish cannot leave the deep
One must never stray from one's true nature...


FROM THE COMPLETE WORKS OF LAO TZU, TRANSLATION AND ELUCIDATION BY HUA-CHING NI

I found this while lurking on the world wide web and decided to share. Call me slow, but I had to read it three times to understand what it meant. Although I don't feel really philosophical today, I found it interesting. While dealing with life we always want instructions on how to handle the shits of "life" so just in case we fail, we have something/someone to blame it on...well, at least I do. But I've realized that no one really gets it and that we all just go by/learn from what was dealt to us, so sometimes a bit of wisdom from far away places or from names we can't even pronounce...like "Lao Tzu" makes us feel like we are getting little secrets about how to finally get it right...
hope it helps :o)

I wanna rewrite my life story...

Hi!
I came upon an amazing book called " Who will cry when you die? life Lessons from the Monk who sold his Ferrari " by Robin Sharma while lurking on Apartment #412,etc's Blog.
And I just had to share ...
#91- Rewrite your Life story

"one of the most wonderful things about time is the fact that you cannot waste it in advance. no matter how much time you have squandered in the past, the next hour that comes your way will be perfect, unspoiled and ready for you to make the very best of it. no matter what has happened to you in the past, your future is spotless...if you so choose, tomorrow can be the day that you start getting up earlier, reading more, exercising, eating well and worrying less. as author ashleigh brilliant has observed, "at any moment i could start being more of the person i dream to be - but which moment should i choose?" no one is stopping you from opening your journal and, on a blank page, rewriting the story of your life. this very minute you can decide the way you would like it to unfold, change the central characters and create a new ending. the only question is will you choose to do so? remember, it is never too late to become the person you have always wanted to be."

I hope this was as inspirational to you as it was for me...

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Leaving on a midnight train to Georgia...

...Well, it’s actually a plane at 6:30 am

By the time this post is updated, I’ll be in Georgia, trying to find myself through the dusty roads and confederate flags. What am I hoping to find you ask? Inspiration, insight and/or peace...if that's even possible within such a short amount of time. For the last three weeks, I have been a ticking time bomb just waiting to explode and I feel as though it’s a good time to get out of the environment which plagues me for a bit. My twin sister lives there and even though we aren’t really getting along, I’ll be surprising her with my presence. For some odd reason, I’m terrified to go…because maybe…just maybe, I will see what’s really lacking within and realize that I can’t do anything to feel better because its beyond my control.

I will be editing this post during my trip away and documenting my experiences as well as my candid feelings.

11:12pm Saturday
Well, today has been the longest day ever. I went to sleep last night at 1am and had to be up at 2am to get ready for the car that was suppose to pick me up and take me to the airport. Long story short...the car was 2 hours late and I ended up at the airport at 5am for my 6:30am flight which was fine with me, although I would have loved the extra hours of sleep. I had to fly to North Carolina just to get back on a smaller jet plane that took me to Georgia. I reached there at 10:30am exhausted. But I did end up reaching and surprising my sister (which she was so surprised she cried...and making her happy enough to cry was well worth the lack of sleep and useless travel).
So I am at a friends house (Syl). I'm in her guest room, ready for bed and working on an assignment that is due tomorrow before I crash. Today, although the stresses of life still plagued me, I felt somewhat hopeful. I was excited to see my ever growing family that lives here and felt cared about. My first realization on this trip is that the environment which i live in is somewhat chaotic, loud, and always erratic. I realized that I'm extremely lonely and that as I get older it's becoming more of an issue. My travel here was quiet and calming even with the hectic travel and this allowed me to feel somewhat at peace as well as distracted... so insight is being seen.

12:41am Tuesday/Wednesday
Well, it's my last night here...I leave in the afternoon (Wednesday). I feel rested and ready to continue my life back at home, I guess. I did figure out a lot of things... all of which I can't really change/beyond my control. So where does it leave me u ask...I have no clue! hrmmm....I guess what's important is that I am going back home with a little more hope (I think) and a little more ammunition to face the things that I need to change as well as achieve. That or I am going to have to figure out Plan #2...
...to be continued

Comfort -vs- Happiness...

“Knowing we should quit it, but we simply won't admit it again
Oh it feels good, it's so good, but I won't do it again
It's so dramatic again
After we go at it, we get mad then we go at it again
Oh I love it, then I hate it, she's/he’s my favorite again
I'm wasting time
I can't help it she's/he’s so fine
Oh I like her/his style
And I love the way she/he talks and I smile
As much as we may try
Can't quite see eye to eye
So in the meantime, I guess we say bye-bye”


-"Another Again” John Legend

This song is like an omen for the constant situation that plagues me.
Why does he keep calling and I keep answering?
He called again and like always...I answered. I wish that the harsh words I presented meant anything to him this time...
but in my heart, I'm excited to see him...to hurt his feelings in person.
Why is comfort more important then happiness?
Food for thought....

Getting used to Life

How do you get used to life, when shit is constantly changing? You know what happens? LIFE happens!! We get older and older, but can never get it JUST right.

You would think that the more mature we get (if we ever really do), the more we learn how to deal. What do you guys think? NOPE! I don't think so, because no matter what, every situation is different. Maybe similar, but NEVER the same.

My stress in this blog is losing something that had so much meaning in my life. People will never understand how important this thing was/is to me. It was only in my life for 7 months, yet I have the hardest time letting go. Nothing will replace it, and I will never forget those 7 months. The physical and mental joy it gave me is now gone. I learned so much and loved every moment of it & now it has all come to a sudden halt. No warning, just a big slap in the face. I know I can get used life again without this entity, but that empty feeling...remains to taunt me.

So to you who's left this empty space in my heart: You can reject me today, hate me tomorrow, discard me for all the things I didn't do for you...but I will come back at a drop of a dime, and ask how high, when you say "jump."

In the mean time, I'll go on with life and get used to it without you in it.

Friend or Foe?

Ok, I just received a call from a "so-called friend" that lets just say needs some help. How is it that every time my phone rings (which is very slim to none) it's someone needing something? And it's always the people that are not really in my life but just hoovering like a helicopter waiting to take, beg, borrow and/or steal.

Lol, ok...maybe i'm overreacting...

But why is life filled with takers and not much givers? Why is society so filled with selfish individuals that are like parasites that just suck the life out of you just because they can?
Real talk...
food for thought...

Ten signs to tell if he's just not that into you

...as if you already didn't know

As women we know when a guy is "just not that into us" but yet we still hang on hoping that maybe he'll finally see something that changes his damn mind. Well ladies, although we got the goodies...we ain't magicians.

So here's a list I compiled while being immersed in the dating world (which I'm still in).

1. If he doesn't call..take a hint!
Plain and simple, isn't it...if he isn't trying to listen to your every word on the phone or trying to be a stalker and figure where you're at by texting or calling...then he probably doesn't give a shit.

2. If he's not trying to see/hang out with you.
Men are visual creatures and they like to look at and be in the same vicinity as the person they like, so If he's not trying to hang with you...then chances are he's trying to hang with someone else.

3. If he doesn't even buy you a drink when out.
Come on Ladies, I am by no means a gold digger but If he looks at you like you're crazy when you're out together and you tell him what you want to drink...hrrmm... I just hope you brought some cash...
It's not even about him buying you something, It's about him WANTING to buy you something. It's more so of the chivalry behind it...if that even exists anymore.

4. If he tells you that he doesn't want to be in a relationship.
Sorry to say it, but chances are...he doesn't want to be in a relationship with YOU. If you don't believe me, wait and see...next month he'll be in a serious relationship and or having a baby with some other chick he met. watch.

5. He only calls you at booty call hour.
If this dude calls you only at late hours...it's because he only wants to "see" you at these late hours. He isn't trying to start something serious with someone when he only wants to, shall we say...relieve the stresses of the day and pass out. He's just a waste of time...unless you want to do the same.

6. If he doesnt introduce you to his friends.
If you feel as though you are a secret entity in his life, chances are you are and he likes it that way. If a man is interested in you, he tells the world, because he wants everyone to know you're his and nobody elses.

7. If all he talks about is sex.
This is a sure give away...If every single conversation leads back to how hot you look, how your ass looks just right, or his favorite positions...GIRL! run for the hills. The only thing he's planing on getting serious with is bedding you. I'm not saying sexy flirty talk is unnecessary but it shouldn't be the ONLY thing you talk about.

8. When he doesn't invite you to his place.
Grant it...its a recession, so if he uses the excuse about living with his mother and still doesn't invite you over...drop him. Because chances are...his mother is his age and they sleep in the same bed. I feel that if a man is willing to allow you into his environment, he likes you enough to date you. If he doesn't, it's because either that place is taken or he just doesn't want you that way.

9. If he doesn't take you out.
I'm a bit old fashion...and If a man doesn't invite me out and I have to be the one asking as if I'm begging for somewhat of a forced date, then chances are...he doesn't want to take you out. I don't even care if the bill is split in half, damn ask me out like a man should ask a girl out.

10. If he calls you his "homegirl" around his friends.
This one is quite funny, because men think their slick. If he's calling you baby in the bed and homegirl around his friends, I'd bet my life that he will always see you as a "homegirl"... just a plain ol' homegirl that he has sex with. I don't know about you but I like one name only and if you can't call me baby on the street...you ain't getting the goodies.

So here you have it...my wonderful list of facts that I've witnessed and/or experienced.
In the hopes that other peoples drama doesn't become your drama because the signs are always there ladies... we just have to open our eyes.
~till next time :o)